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September 3rd, 2009
06:11 pm - What Matters Most
Some good conversations have come up after the post I made just before this one and I kept thinking of the perfect Bukowski line [and subsequent book title] ‘What matters most is how well you walk through the fire.’ This is as good of a mantra as you could have, I’d imagine, and I think that it’s sort of been ringing louder and louder as I’ve been thinking about the whole art thing. And it’s not just art but it’s literature too and, most importantly, it’s about life in general and as a whole.
Everybody has their own fires to walk through and what’s hard to you might be easy for me. What’s hot to me might be breezy for you. What’s art to you might be crap to me and what’s good solid work to me might be kid scribbles to someone else. I mean, really, I can’t hardly navigate through until the end of some of Allen Ginsburg’s writings. And I know plenty of people that find Salinger more ponderous than poetic. It’s all subjective, of course. And all we can do is just do our very best work and leave it at that.
But, in the interest of being contrary and while we’re on the subject of Bukowski, I cannot understand how anyone could ever just simply dismiss Bukowski as being little more than a misogynistic drunk. Have you ever really read any of his work or is that just some point of view you learned to express is your Womyn’s Writing Workshop?
[Why does all of this stuff always get me so goddam excited anyway? Sorry. Sort of.]
Originally published at [Posted over at smartwentcrazy.com/journal.]. You can comment here or there.
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August 31st, 2009
11:07 pm - Is That The Moon Or Something Somebody Made?
So I’ve been considering the definition of the word Art a lot lately since I’ve been working on this new project. The thing is being called One Thousand Thousand and the idea is to create one million pieces of art. All original, done by hand, and without any mechanical reproduction. It’s the same exercise that we’ve been doing for years now but it’s suddenly become official and proper and it’s coming along nicely so far. [The link goes to a gallery of 35 recent pieces that were all done on the same day. I've probably done as many as 150 or so pieces in one day but I forget for sure. Either way, you have to do that many if you'll ever get close to doing a million.]
At any rate, I’m posting a portion of those finished pieces to Etsy and am having a go at selling them off for a buck or two. I’ve never really spent any time on Etsy and I didn’t know too much about it save for the things I learned from Cybele.
If you don’t know the site then I’ll leave it to you to check it out but Etsy is supposed to be a place to buy and sell only handmade products and items. The other permissible items that you can sell there are either vintage things [at least 20 years old] or supplies that are used to create art or handmade items. But whatever your art is, painting, knitting, using odd materials, collage, sculpture, photography, jewelry making, knitting or candlemaking or whatever your art is. And that’s a really cool concept for sure and there are some very, very cool things there. Very cool.
But I’m realizing pretty quickly that there are some really crummy things there too. And the art section in particular is really overrun by some just awful stuff from people that claim it’s art and call themselves artists and it just drives me crazy. And this isn’t something that is unique to Etsy at all. I’m not saying that. I’ve felt the same way about major gallery showings on down to mail art websites like the old, awesome Nervousness. [Is that thing still going?]
Bottom line is that there is just a lot of bad art out there and there are people that encourage it and even pay for it. Tremendous sums, in fact. But I think it’s just because they don’t know what art really is. It’s just some imaginary and unrealistic concept in their head and they probably never took too much time to really think about it too hard. Or maybe I’m just over thinking it myself. [Probably both, I'm sure.]
Still, all you can do if you feel the way that I feel is to just not let it get to you and remedy the perceived situation by producing what you believe is good solid work and hope that it evens out somewhere down the line. It’s kind of like Karma, I guess. The negativity and hurt and suffering is cyclical and the only way to right those things is to choose compassion and take the higher road and create lovingkindness every chance you get.
And to art again; I have always thought that anti-art is somehow closer to what True Art should be or really is. I appreciate the anti-art, anti-product, Fluxus, Futurism approaches a great deal. Those philosophies have been important to me lately and have inspired a lot of the things I’m working on as well as the outlook I have as of late and I really appreciate the definition that George Maciunas gave for what he thought the differences between art and anti-art really were.
This is basically what he said:
Art existed to “justify the artist’s professional, parasitic and elite status in society, he must demonstrate artist’s indispensability and exclusiveness, he must demonstrate the dependability of audience upon him,
he must demonstrate that no one but the artist can do art. Therefore, art must appear to be complex, pretentious, profound, serious, intellectual, inspired, skillful, significant, theatrical, It must appear to be valuable as commodity so as to provide the artist with an income. To raise its value (artist’s income and patrons profit), art is made to appear rare, limited in quantity and therefore obtainable and accessible only to the social elite and institutions.”
He also said that anti-art and the Fluxus approach was,
“To establish artist’s nonprofessional status in society, he must demonstrate artist’s dispensability and inclusiveness, he must demonstrate the self sufficiency of the audience, he must demonstrate that anything can be art and anyone can do it. Therefore, anti-art must be simple, amusing, unpretentious, concerned with insignificance’s, require no skill or countless rehearsals, have no commodity or institutional value. The value of art-amusement must be lowered by making it unlimited, massproduced, obtainable by all and eventually produced by all. Fluxus art-amusement is the rear-guard without any pretension or urge to participate in the competition of “one-upmanship” with the avant-garde. It strives for the monostructural and nontheatrical qualities of simple natural event, a game or a gag. It is the fusion of Spikes Jones Vaudeville, gag, children’s games and Duchamp.”
Again, I don’t think he covers it completely and I know he contradicts some of what I’ve said. And, most importantly, I know there’s no right answer here. But what I do agree with completely is that I think it’s so lame for people to take themselves so seriously about the things they produce and create. I think that as soon as you start worrying more about copyrights and watermarks than you do the whole process of catharsis and creation then it’s not only pretty sad but it’s also, to me at least, absolutely ridiculous. The entire point of Art and making art in the first place has been missed.
In pretty much every gallery show I’ve ever had or been a part of my work has sold out. Completely. This isn’t me being arrogant or cocky or boastful and I swear on everything that it’s not. I’m not even implying the work was good or even worth it either. But it’s more to say that the work has always been priced to sell. I’ve always been of the mindset that I’d just simply not like to take the pieces back to my place at the end of the day and I’d like to not live with them anymore after a point. For the 52 Weeks project there was a provision in the contract with the gallery that if every single piece didn’t sell then we wouldn’t sell any of them at all. It was an All Or Nothing Clause and the point was that either they would all have to go and the emotions attached would be exorcised along with the work or the whole thing would stay completely intact where you’d have to make room to keep living with it.
I guess what I mean to say is that I have always made, and I continue to make, these things [my art] to either get something out of me or to share something with whomever might come along and listen. One or the other. And by choosing prices that meet the financial abilities of the average human being is just a way to actually accomplish those two things. If I charged three grand for every little piece I made I’d be sitting in a boring museum of my own work and nobody would hear a word I was ever trying to say.
Adding some super-crazed prices to your work is just bullshit, really, and when I see some mediocre piece that has this zany-high price tag I instantly feel like it means the person that made it only equates money with value. Either that or they feel like that’s the way to really prove to everyone else that they are a ‘real artist’ and that their work is important. This is what galleries do for the most part and it’s all hype to create a profit. Or whatever. I don’t know really what I mean to say exactly. But I know what I mean for sure.
So I guess I say go ahead and make contrived pieces of crap using imagery that’s as overused as the goddam Golden Arches. Throw in words like inspire and breathe and hope. Add some fairies or angels or anything with wings and toss in some doll heads and antique typewriter keys just for good measure. Then, for the love of all that is good and true and sacred, be sure to scan it and then run off a few copies on your inkjet printer and sell them as limited prints. Give it a French name so it sounds ‘fancier’ and more high-brow. And you can call it whatever you want. It’s art. You’re an artist. Fine.
But I am too and I have a different opinion about it and I might be wrong or I might be right or I might be neither or even both. I have no idea what I’m talking about even. I guess it is what you say it is and it is what you make it out to be and it is all dependent on how it touches you or speaks to you I suppose. [And that's something different for everyone I guess, right?]
Ugh! [YAWP!]
Emerson said, “Give me health and a day and I will make the pomp of emperors ridiculous.” I guess I’ll leave it at that. If that’s cool with you.
[Pardon me for my rut.]
Originally published at [Posted over at smartwentcrazy.com/journal.]. You can comment here or there.
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June 25th, 2009
07:08 pm - [Some Small Things.] This is what we did the other day.
35 little mixed-media mini-canvases. I plan on doing at least 100 more tomorrow.
[If the embedded thing doesn't work the link is just HERE.]
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June 1st, 2009
07:35 am - Leshan Buddha Sketchbook Scan I have this weird way of meditating sometimes and I tend to do these quick gesture drawings of the same subject over and over. I remember doing the same thing for scarab beetles, my wooden carved Weeping Buddha statue and Ganesha. I probably made well over 100 drawings of each of those things. Most recently I'm really into the Leshan Bodhisattva/Buddha statue. I'm just so overwhelmed by this statue and the sheer scope and scale and magnitude of it. It's so beautiful to me that it seems like it can't even really exist. It was started in the year 713 and it took about 90 years to complete.
[I'm cross posting this to buddhists as well since that's where I was reminded of this.] Current Location: 724 Current Mood: sleepy
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June 2nd, 2008
08:53 pm - [Do You Believe In The Bible?] Someone at work asked me about my mala the other day and that started a conversation about religion and after some talking about what Buddhism really is and what it really isn't I am asked, "Then what about Jesus? What about God?" As if to say that Jesus just has to fit into the whole scheme of things somehow and how does the whole Buddhism thing tie all of that together with Jesus. And I end up saying something about how I don't really believe in God and I don't believe in Jesus [as both are typically understood, and defined by, most Christians] and although I've often admitted for the sake of conversation that I somehow did believe that a guy named Jesus actually existed and walked the Earth and was pretty groovy and all [to paraphrase Eddie Izzard] but I didn't in fact believe that he was God or the Son of God or anything like that at all. [Now, truthfully, I'm not entirely certain or not if any actual guy named Jesus ever really even existed. I'm thinking lately that chances are there was no such person at all.]
And this girl that is sitting near enough to be listening in on the conversation actually made a very audible gasp when I said that. Like she was shocked that I could ever even say something like that. Or that she was seriously expecting some lightning bolt to come down and brain me right there on the spot. Or maybe she was just worried for me or something. I don't know. And believe me, I wasn't saying what I said in a confrontational or condescending way at all. [And maybe that was what was gasp-worthy.]
I don't want to get into the whole debate about people and their respective belief systems and I don't want to be outwardly offensive to people for believing in that Jesus is God [or for not believing in the Flying Spaghetti Monster] but I do find it tremendously fascinating how people are honestly able to believe certain things to be fundamentally and invariably true and real that seem patently absurd to others. I guess it's all a matter of perception and I do see how some aboriginal bushmen could come to believe that a Coca-Cola bottle was some object sent to Earth by spirits, evil or otherwise.
I almost cannot get enough of these people and I'm absorbed by their stories and points of view. Like the guy that took the time to build Jesus-is-the-Savior.com or some of the subjects in the awesome documentary Jesus Camp. I'm hiding the embedded video ( behind a cut ) since you may very well be sick of me and my goddam video posts but, seriously, this is an impressive documentary and if you've not seen it I think you'll like it. [ posteverything, have you been able to see this by now or not?] Although, I do need to say that when these beliefs become seriously harmful and damaging as they certainly are for some of the kids in the Jesus Camp documentary I think it's beyond awful. Not that I needed to say that, of course, but still.
[I think that I'm probably rambling now.]
One of my favorite artists ever is Howard Finster and his entire body of work centers around his core belief that Jesus is coming back and that we all better get our acts together before he does or there will be a very literal Hell to pay. I love him because I love his work and I always but I'm also sure that I love him additionally because of his crazy convictions. Or maybe for his ability to simply be able to believe in something so entirely that it becomes almost built-in. To believe in something like that so fully is impressive on some level. [And 'impressive' is a subjective word, to be sure.] Obsession with crazed ideas and imagery and beliefs is something that I guess I respond to in some way. [More like in a big way for some reason.] I love the work of Adolph Wölfli and Henry Darger and even, in some nostalgic and weird way, those J.T. Chick religious tracts.
Something that my friend lisapink wrote to me today really struck me. She said that "there is a process you get to be witness to in an extreme environment that lends more information than one could retrieve on in research of self or stable environment." I agree completely. Wandering around for a while in extreme environments is revealing to say the least and you can learn so much from those places and for most of my life I've been a huge proponent of visiting those places as often as you can. [Go! Buy the ticket and take the ride. Go!] I guess that some people just go to those extreme environments and maybe like it there so much that they somehow just decide to stay there forever and throw away their maps and forget that they ever came from someplace else to begin with. Who knows? Maybe they just somehow forget that they can leave any time that they'd like.
[Now I'm rambling for sure and I know it. Sorry about that.]
But to answer that question about whether or not I believe in the Bible or not I respond here with what I invariably respond when people ask me that same question, "Hell yeah I believe in the Bible! I've seen one!" [This makes me feel all laughy every single time that I think of it.]
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May 13th, 2008
06:42 pm - [Erasing Rauschenberg.] Since I was a very small child I recall loving Robert Rauchenberg. My grandfather was an artist and I learned so much from just sitting on his lap at the kitchen table as we paged through art books and catalogs and the lot. Still, to this day there are maybe 10 or so artists that I am certain that invariably made some sort of huge impact on me. As an artist and as a lover of art. Rauschenberg is one of those artists.
A few months ago I stumbled upon this great video about him and the whole Erased De Kooning piece.
I just adore it and I figure it's a nice enough reminder to celebrate his life and art and a fitting enough way to honor the passing of a very real hero of mine.
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April 17th, 2008
08:48 pm - [Art Hurts.] or [Mean What You Make.] I went to a gallery opening this evening at the University of Arizona. It was the 2008 MFA thesis exhibition and I hadn't been to a gallery opening in a long time.
I went to Visual and Performing Arts High School in St. Louis. It was a really great program and the idea was that there would be advanced academics and the students would make art for a large portion of the day. Most high schools have about 55 minute academic classes. Ours were cut a lot shorter and all of that extra time was put towards a thing called your 'art block'. On Monday, Wednesday and Friday you would go to you Major class. On Tuesday and Thursday you would go to your Minor class. You could choose from subjects like Visual Art, Theater, Dance, Photography, Music, Creative Writing and so on. I chose Visual Art and Photography. [But eventually just enrolled in Visual Art full time.] It was also set up so that you had different classes for different skill levels. If you were a beginner then you'd go to your art block in the mornings. Intermediate level was in the middle of the day. And advanced art block classes were held at the end of the day. Most freshmen were in the beginning art block while seniors were usually in the advanced classes. From my first year at the school as a freshman I was able to jump pretty quickly to the advanced level and by time I got to my junior and senior year I was pretty much taking only art classes. All day long. I'd ditch algebra and social studies and hang out in the art class. Mr. Perry was awesome that way and would usually cover for me by vouching for me that I was needed in his class or was working on some important project or whatever. The other teachers seemed to accept that and in my experience they tended to value the art classes over the academic stuff.
And we had art shows all of the time in high school and since most of us were artists we'd have plenty of our own shows outside of school and after we graduated. And going to gallery openings was literally part of our homework and classwork. We'd get extra credit for attending these things and so as a kid in high school I'd go to just about every gallery opening that they had. And another part of going to V.A.P was that we'd take field trips to the Museum of Fine Art like every other week or so. They'd load us all up in a bus and drop us off there with a large drawing board and a giant pad of paper and some pencils or charcoal or whatever and just let us go. The idea was that we'd only have to at least make like, say, 10 drawings of whatever we wanted to. We'd park in front of one piece that we really liked and then just sort of study it for a while. I mean, really study the thing. Interpret it on our own.
And over the years I really do feel like I've seen it all. From high school through college and on through being a working artist. I've been to more gallery openings than I can count and have had plenty of my own gallery openings and I consider myself as much of a student of gallery openings themselves as I am a student of the art by itself. I feel like I know a lot about both of those things. And so I admit that I am a real prude when it comes to art and art openings and I can spot a phony or a faker a mile away. I can tell if you are just pretending to make art and I can tell if you made it because you just fucking had to. I can tell if you are just going through the motions and, to steal a line from Basquiat, just "playing Art with Daddy's money" and I can tell if you really mean what you made. I've seen crap art and good art and fake art and impossibly perfect art. And I am really hard to take along to an opening. I get really tense because I feel myself becoming really worked up when I see some bullshit project or whatever. And I also end up getting tense because when I do find something that I like and I feel the need to want to say so to the artist I invariably back down because so many people automatically say how much they like the work just because they think that's the proper and polite thing to do.
This time was okay though and I really did enjoy myself. I'm glad that people make art. For whatever reason, really. I'm glad that people come out to see art that other people have made and I'm glad that art is important. [Because it is important.]
Okay. I just wanted to mention it is all.
And I should mention that one of my favorite openings that I have ever been to was one over a decade ago where my great, good friend watery was showing her work. I remember being so transfixed by her work and by her and I'm so, so happy that we became friends. [Yup.]
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March 25th, 2008
11:32 pm - [Art Ideas.] Was speaking with my great, good friend watery earlier tonight about art and making some sort of living doing it and uncommon ideas for getting your art seen by people and all the rest. I've been considering all the ways to use the internet as a tool for that sort of thing and have spent some time poking around online for ideas and input and opinions on the subject. I stumbled upon this cool bit about Australian artist Hazel Dooney. Hazel is offering a print in an unlimited edition titled "Study for Unsated" and people are able to download it for free. Which means that you will have to print the work on your own, but if you then send it to her studio she'll sign it and send it back to you.
Here's Hazel's blog post with a little more about the work.
And here's a link to the high resolution art print to download.
[I really wish I'd have thought of this one first. But it's not ever to late to adopt it on my own.]
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April 14th, 2006
05:15 am - [The Only Mantra I've Ever Really Known.] When I was a very small child, just after my father left my kid sister and me behind for something better and never even looked back for a second; and just after my mother started to drink and drink and bury her brothers and lose her mother and raise two small children by herself with no more money or options in sight; and just after a pregnant woman got very scared and screamed for help when the current of a muddy Missouri river pulled her out too far and too fast, my Uncle Cornelius swam out hard towards her and she was safely on shore in no time but my Uncle Nonnie, the man that I am proud to say I am the very spit and image of, so much in fact that it sometimes makes me very nervous just to think about it, was promptly drowned in that very same water and his body lay dead and alone down there for over twenty-nine days before he was hooked out and buried in the ground; and it was just before Alphonsus Andrew McHenry III, my namesake who served on the USS Jason in the Navy and my cool, cool Uncle Andy the beaming father of my brand new cousin Andrew IV, was robbed at gunpoint and then told to lay face-down on the floor while a pillow was placed over the enviably curly hair on the back of his head and then a trigger was pulled and the casket was closed; just after my Grandmother Constance breathed in her very last labored breath of life as I stood eye-level and inches from her face at her bedside in the hospital room where I then breathed in that exact same breath that was just before inside of her lungs that I stood so straight and silent and still there and I held her hand so softly and so tightly and I just never, ever would let it go until they made me let go; and just after a true and good man named Harrison Lejeune Cunningham taught me how to paint and draw and why art was just simply sacred and why pancakes in giraffe shapes were the only true meal and why a horse in a game of chess could be plenty tough if only you just looked at it in the right way, my only hero ever, my Grandpa Harry, a man so filled with nothing but love and nothing but cancer, died in his sleep on his favorite M.C. Escher bed sheets and dreaming, no doubt, of Winslow Homer and mostly of me; just after all of this happened and death and dying seemed somehow normal, I was taken to a garage sale and allowed to choose a real book of my own. Not some kid book but a grown-up book. One with no pictures at all and only just words and words and words. And was one that I had picked out all by myself all for myself.
It was on that day, just after death seemed to sort-of surround my entire life and take away almost everyone that I have ever loved in less than a year, that I happened to choose a book on literature. A book that would become the first in a long line of books serving as a talisman, a very real talisman for me and one that I do not own now nor have I owned another since. Inside of this book was a printed list and the items on this list were labeled as being essential [and I looked it up then so I was sure that it meant I really did need these things] so I read that list maybe a million times or so. No kidding. I bet I’ve read those words a million times over by now if that's possible.
The list is exactly this:
Belief & Technique For Modern Prose by Jack Kerouac List of Essentials:
1. Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy 2. Submissive to everything, open, listening 3. Try never get drunk outside yr own house 4. Be in love with yr life 5. Something that you feel will find its own form 6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind 7. Blow as deep as you want to blow 8. Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind 9. The unspeakable visions of the individual 10. No time for poetry but exactly what is 11. Visionary tics shivering in the chest 12. In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you 13. Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition 14. Like Proust be an old teahead of time 15. Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog 16. The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye 17. Write in recollection and amazement for yourself 18. Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea 19. Accept loss forever 20. Believe in the holy contour of life 21. Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind 22. Dont think of words when you stop but to see picture better 23. Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning 24. No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge 25. Write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures of it 26. Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American form 27. In praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness 28. Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from under, crazier the better 29. You're a Genius all the time I mean, there was a point there when I was nine years old or so and I was living inside of my own head and reading too much for a kid and I can easily see how I could think that some sort of angel must have been hanging out back then just in order to give me that book. I really don't know for sure. But it's possible. [If anything is possible.] Current Mood: So teary and nothing.
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